I'm a married momma of 2 funny and active boys - one very talkative 7 year old (the kid, born Feb '06), and one busy preschooler (baby E, born Sept '10). I'm also a social worker with an unusual amount of knowledge about pregnancy for someone who's never experienced it firsthand. This blog is the telling of my journey to and through motherhood, with some sarcasm thrown in.
I can't, I can't, I can't, oh God, I can't. God, I can't give him back to her. I can't do it. I can't watch my husband lose a son. I can't watch my child lose his brother. I can't lose my baby. He is part of my heart. Oh, God. I can't do it. R may be changing her mind. Please, God, please. I didn't let myself love him until we got home from the hospital. I thought it was safe. I love him now. And I know she does too... I don't know what to do. Please don't take him from us. I can't. I can't. Oh, God. I can't.