My HAWMC prompt today was to start with the sentence "This morning I looked in the mirror and saw______________", and then just keep writing, don't stop, don't edit. Just post. So here it is.
This morning I looked in the mirror and saw me. And, after critiquing the eyebrows due for a few plucks, and the 2nd chin I hate, I thought, "you know what, I am a blogger". It's probably the first time I've thought of myself as an actual blogger. I mean, I've described myself as someone who writes a blog. But to say "I am a blogger" seems different somehow.
Today, you see, is my 300th post. Now, some of those posts were guest posts (3 to be exact, I believe). But, to be fair, I did write intros to all of those. So I think it still counts. And that's a lot of words, folks. (Yes, we know, they respond. We have had to read all that crap you write.)
I never dreamed when I started this blog, that I'd still be at it 3 months shy of three years later. To be honest, I kind of thought I'd get 4 or 5 posts in, and it would lie dormant. Like forever. One of those things that I start but don't finish because it's another task I didn't have time for.
Turns out this is quite an outlet for me. A place where I can say (nearly) anything I need to say. It's a place where I was able to, for the first time, really talk about and process infertility. A place where I've found support, unexpectedly. A place where I've connected with people who have "been there" and those, who even though they haven't been there, still get me. I hope I've been able to impart some laughter and maybe even a little insight along the way. I know I've certainly gained a lot of them.
So, thank you, people. Thank you for reading my words. For writing some back to me. For not telling me I'm a complete idiot (except when I am being one, of course). For simply being here.
Wonder if I have another 300 in me...
Today's lesson: Really, those unexpected things in life can teach us the most about ourselves, can't they?
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